Two panic attacks were had within the 2nd week of January. But, Sherlock came back! And that was a jolly good run for I created a mind palace of my own. It may have described it to you at one point or another, but it’s quite useful. The 1st semester of school ended with a relatively good scoring. Ah, but before that happened, I met someone off Tumblr. That was an interesting experience and better than my other experiences. I also started talking to a friend of mine and I was content. The ginger ale addiction went into full power with the consumption of 144oz in less than a week. Which is actually quite a bit.
SING! It’s time for SING and things are to be done. Money to be dished out. And SAT dues to be paid. I’m going to be broke, but that’s a shame. Valentine’s Day eve comes and I lost contentment. With whom shall I discuss the finer points of life? Havoc will be wreaked within my mind, but I’ll be sane once again. A jolt of pure reality. Winter break comes and goes. The awkwardness starts anew. Rationalization attempts to take over with anger following suit. I start to talk to myself on my Facebook wall and Twitter is too restricting. I miss the talks. But, it’s going to be fun. Juggling clubs, friends, school, and internships. There’s nothing to be done. I will survive.
What do I do now? Hannibal’s back. The plot has been set. My mind will attempt to conform. I may have failed a test in February, but that will be the only one. I am talking to my old acquaintances, but one has had a death. I used to be able to cheer them up, but what I am I supposed to? I may have sympathy, but not empathy. Apathetic is too strong a word.
I don’t even know how I’m typing here, but too bad. So sad. It was in the moment. I’ll be posting things that appear to be more meaningful.
I just redid my résumé. The last time I did was…~a year ago.
That was fun.
I think I might be visiting the library tomorrow. Probably not, but still. Maybe a pdf. But, I need someone to check in with me. The goal is to finish by the end of the month.
- Fahrenheit 451
- Paper Towns
- Anansi Boys
- The Shock Doctrine
- Catch 22
- Auditing and Assurance Services, 5th Edition (This is the most important. Lol.)
This wasn’t in any particular order, but I need to be sorted out.
I told her I liked her. And while it’s not being held against me and essentially a move forward with ignoring the whole thing happened, a couple things are about to happen.
A) Loss of openness. B) Lack of communication. C) Back to square one in terms of friendship.
But, you know what. I’m okay with that. I give the advice to people to just go for it. And so I did that. I’m not a hypocrite. I am satisfied with my decision. So, that’s that.
On this day last year, I deleted my Tumblr. Today, I told someone I liked them and was basically rejected. Let’s see what happens next year?